Went through my phone and deleted loads of pictures and videos of me and my ex I’ve accumulated over the years. It spans from us kissing/being a couple, to being silly together, to compilations of us both laughing, to iPod videos we used to sent each other while at breaks at work, to trips away over the country, and just incredibly fond memories. It’s made me really sad to kind have it thrown away but it’s the only way I’ll be able to fully move on and be happy, just in the way she has with me. I’ve been doing really well for a week, not checked her blog or anything so I didn’t upset myself, but going through those videos tonight… I just I kept seeing stuff that made me laugh and smile, and even made me zone out of what’s happened lately, to want to hug her and hang out again and make stupid videos all over. But then I instantly wanted to cry because reality strikes and I realised that we’ll never share that kind of connection ever again, I may not ever find anyone to share that kind of connection with, and she’s probably happier without me in her life and being with her new boyfriend. Sigh. Guess I gotta stay strong.
do you ever just secretly quote song lyrics in your school work and no one knows except you
LOL, I actually used to do this at school.
Wishing my grandma well and so much love after her mini stroke, the poor lass, bless her :( Thankfully she’s pretty okay now and back at home in her own environment to recover to her best, but it doesn’t make it any less scary. It just solidifies that life’s way too short to worry about problems and things out of our control; there’s far more important things going on in the grand scheme of things! Hope everyone is well and good, plus it’s times like this when it brings people together :)
Just overheard a young daughter saying to her mum: “I love you, mummy. I love you lots and lots.” Bloody adorable! I can’t wait to have a child one day :)